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Monday, May 4, 2009
walking dead (literally)/ 10:34 PM I'm pretty stoned right now. For the past few days, i've not been sleeping well or at all.....reason being.... I'm barely even half awake now, I don't get past half the day without feeling lethargic or sleepy or just brain-dead. A peaceful feeling actually, not thinking - no wonder alot of people don't think. Theory is, if you are tired, you don't have the energy to feel or think as a normal human do, and in time, when you are really fucking tired, you dun feel or think at all. Not like a human at all. AT ALL. Been curious how that'll feel like, so why not give it a try. Okay, thats total bull, haha, i KNOW what it feels like. Just miss it you know? I guess you don't...hah. The process is pretty draining but once you reach that level or stage whatever you want to call it, you dun think about it, your mind just shuts down and someone else take over and you sleep in bitter oblivion. Then suddenly, you'll wake up from your deep slumber and you've never been better, you've never seen clearer. Everything is crystal clear. Everything No hope. No worries. No nothing. Just you and the world. You know whats what. Pretty awesome deal for a few sleepless nights. However, once you're under, theres no telling when you'll snap out of it. Once you tried it, you'll want to do it again and again and again. A never ending cycle. A never ending cycle you'd want to break out of but keep getting suck into the whirlpool. Do i want out? or lets go for the ride one more time? PS: AND EH FUCK....NOT EMO MAN Labels: emotionally unstable |
