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Thursday, August 23, 2007
Them Them Them never ME/ 9:04 PM HEy!!!! i've been sooo busy these past few days that i have no time to post anything....it like 9:20 pm right now on a thursday night... okay so todays a thursday right....i ponteng school today.....i woke up late...sorry!!!NOT!! ahahha....anyways i did go to school but it was like at 2 plus, when school was actually over...hahah...naughty naughty.....i came to school to do my art....i have sooooo many stuff to do!! god!!! well when i reach school i met up with jana, nad, sharir, ashraff, akmal, aida and siddiq....we went out for lunch first....so after lunch they went back home except for me, nad, rir and akmal.... Well separated and yah i went for art...i was working on my canvas thew whole time and was standing the whole time!!! i'm soooooo emotionally and physically drained now....well...even though i've been working on it, i still have loads and loads to do....i'm sooo freaking stressed out right now its not funny!!!!!! if you ask what i'm thinking of right now, i'd probably say i'm thinking of my art work....there's soo much to think about... How to make it look 3d? How to make my self portraits fit into the picture? How to paint the freaking machines without making it look flat? How to come up with a reason why i did this How can i get my heart to stand out? F*@$ it dude!!!!! all i care right now is to sleep and forget all my worries right now....but most probably i'd still think of it in my sleep.....times like this make me think why the hell did i took art!?!?!?? but i know it's all gonna be worth it at the end.....but its the process that i cant take it!!!ohhh gosh....and with all my other subjects piling on me, i wonder how i cope with all the subjects, two ccas, student leadership(its bull btw), my IPW, campcraft practices(competition) and my helping my friend with the malay dance routine and performance AND rehersals!! god!! what am i a robot?!?!? everyone seems to depend on me for something....they're like sucking the life out of me!!! OH shit, i still have to get the costumes and make up shit for the performance....... ITS NOT FUNNY!!!! it all THEM THEM THEM!!! never ME!!!URGH!!! i'm soo on the verge of losing it. SERIOUSLY....... Labels: losing it, them never me |
