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Sunday, March 16, 2008
103 post anniversary!!/ 12:02 AM OKAy!! THis is to celebrate my 103 post!!!(wow, would have thought that the blog would have died by now..haha) and since this is my 103 post, i think i'll talk about something deep and that meeans something to me, not my usual bullpoop but bout something that has been bothering me for pretty much, all my life...okay maybe not that drastic but at least my teenage life. Soo here goes... I've been sitting back and observing and dissecting peoples feelings, reactions and expressions but i still can't 100% get it. People say that it feels great to fall in love, to care alot about that significant other but from what i'm seeing, it's not that great at all. Maybe it's just me but couples get together and they get separated faster than i can say "LOVE". At the beginning, they are all dreamy eyed over one another and then the next they are tearing at each others limbs. When it's all finally over, they say it was a mistake. Is that really how easy it is for them? Do they feel nothing at all? I for one can never stop thinking about it. Maybe its the cycle that interests me, or maybe its the people but i don't see why they get into a realationship again and again knowing that they'll get hurt? And i definitely still do not get how easily they could "commit" to each other. It's like, i like you, you like me, let's jump in the relationship wagon! WHAT THE HELL?!?! i don't know, maybe i think too much, wonder too much but isn't it right to wonder and think too much about someone your going to commit to? What's going to happen in 5 10 years time? Will it only last a week? Would i still feel the same way tomorrow? Would HE feel the same way tomorrow? People would think that after getting dumped, people would be more cautious or wary to get into a relationship but noooo!! they just jump right in again!! I'd understand the occasional romance but every other day too??? After breaking up, you put yourself in the market again and then you break up again and then put youself on the market again. Cycle after cycle after cycle. This becomes a habit and nothing's special anymore coz it all have a sequence now. 1st this then that then this then that. ARRGHH!! And don't you think you'd look cheap? Don't you think you look easy in others eyes? You get into a relationship knowing that it will end and that it will one way or another hurt you enough to leave a scar. Then why do you go through it again and agian. Maybe its the frantic search for Mr./Mrs RIGHT. Maybe you can't stand being alone. Maybe its all a game to you. Maybe you want to be wanted. Maybe you want to belong. I would never know the answers to all my questions and i don't intend to find out anytime soon. I intend to lead a complication free life...well at least for now. But one things for sure, Relationships will always be one big puzzle to me. Other than that, i'm happy, i'm healty and i'm enjoying life to the fullest! That's all that counts!! To my hundred and third post!! PS: (response to nads post) To my beloved friends. Forever and always. Labels: emotionally unstable, random post 101, thoughts |
