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Thursday, April 9, 2009
Hope..what a load of bull/ 12:31 AM Alamak, bloody hell luhh.... After tossing and turning like some maniac on my bed, i finally gave up and decided to just stare at my ceiling and drown myself in the loud post-hardcore music i turned on. Tonight is like every other night, i just surround myself with darkness and just zone out before finally drifting off to sleep... Usually i'll just keep awake and tire myself out so that by the time i lie on my bed i'll just knock out in a few minutes. But not tonight i guess, the usual routine of staring off into space while letting my music blast in my ears but not really listening to it....thinking of...oh well, this and that... Hope a funny word huh? Some believes in it, some don't and some just don't give a shit bout it. Which category do i fall under? hmmm, maybe i do believe in it but then again maybe i don't or maybe i shouldn't even bother hoping, why hope? Hope are for the weak, those that can't and don't do anything about shit...that's why they hope...they don't have the power to control the situation therefore they only hope things turn out for the better...hah ME? I don't hope, if the situation gets better, good then and if it doesn't then i say FUCK IT I dun sit back and just let "FATE/DESTINY" take its course, i make my own destiny...nobody is going to tell me my future is all set and pass me a freaking contract all printed in black and white expecting me to sign it and lay over like a a bitch learning new tricks. Hoping is a waste of time....Why hope when you can try and do something about it? If it doesnt work out, oh well freaking move on then...see? you dun have to fucking hope that the situation will change, you CHANGE IT. "I let go. Lost in oblivion. Dark and silent and complete. I found freedom. Losing all hope was freedom. " I can't agree with this more...Without hoping, you dun expect anything and dun have ridiculous wishful thinking that everything will turn out like that fucking fairy tale ending you watch in movies or read in books. You and I know why its there in the first place, to provide people, who cant handle the fact that the world is a fucked up place with a temporary escape from this world filled with disappointment and darkness... I know some of you may strongly disagree and that i may have pissed certain people off, but oh well this is my blog and this is my opinion, so sue me. When the day comes when a damn human being cant have an opinion of their own...its prolly the day where the C_______ grow big dicks, the B_______ dun smell like shit and MATS (this one i can say) dun think about sex all day...HAH fat chance that happening! P.S : you can assume whatever the blanks are....i did not say it, you were the ones who thought of it Labels: random post 101, rant post, thoughts |
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Thursday, March 5, 2009
Past and Present/ 10:04 AM Hey People! What do you think of MY New Blogskin? I decided to give my blog a lil sprucing up since its been awhile and also coz i'm bored to DEATH at home right now... Anywho, I admit it's very simple but i guess taste change as time passes and besides, i was feeling simply-ish. HAHA! Wasnt in the mood for anything extravagant or IN-YOUR-FACE colourful! As i've said before previously, how my blogskin turns out is soley due to my mood when i was doing up my blogskin. Its kinda unpredictable, how my blog is gonna turn up. :P So anyhow, other than just sprucing up my blogskin just for the sake of having something to do, I also thought that maybe its a kinda symbolic gesture of change and how many of them i'll be experiencing soon. I don't expect poly life to be anywhere similar to Secondary school life, nor do i expect to meet similar people as well. In the weeks to come, i'll be experiencing constant change and as much as i don't want it, i DO want it as well. No more the life of uniforms, of having my exclusive cliques(I still MISS YOU GUYS ALOT!) but hello to everything new and scary, haha. I'm sure in time, i'll get used to the changes but time cannot cure the ache of missing all my best friends who I've bonded with and who have accepted me in the four years I was in TK. I'm certain we wont lose each other but not seeing each other as often as we used to will definitely make each one of us miss each other more and more. Friends like them only come once in a lifetime and I don't wish to let them go that easily (hahaha, i sound like a PSYCHO CLINGY FRIEND....*shivers*) So cheers to my new life, new friends and most importantly new beginnings. And ALSO cheers to my best friends, the time we had together and to the the past. Without a past, there wont be a present. I LOVE YOU GUYS :P Labels: ngee ann poly, random post 101, sappy shit, tanjong katong, thoughts |
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Sunday, March 16, 2008
103 post anniversary!!/ 12:02 AM OKAy!! THis is to celebrate my 103 post!!!(wow, would have thought that the blog would have died by now..haha) and since this is my 103 post, i think i'll talk about something deep and that meeans something to me, not my usual bullpoop but bout something that has been bothering me for pretty much, all my life...okay maybe not that drastic but at least my teenage life. Soo here goes... I've been sitting back and observing and dissecting peoples feelings, reactions and expressions but i still can't 100% get it. People say that it feels great to fall in love, to care alot about that significant other but from what i'm seeing, it's not that great at all. Maybe it's just me but couples get together and they get separated faster than i can say "LOVE". At the beginning, they are all dreamy eyed over one another and then the next they are tearing at each others limbs. When it's all finally over, they say it was a mistake. Is that really how easy it is for them? Do they feel nothing at all? I for one can never stop thinking about it. Maybe its the cycle that interests me, or maybe its the people but i don't see why they get into a realationship again and again knowing that they'll get hurt? And i definitely still do not get how easily they could "commit" to each other. It's like, i like you, you like me, let's jump in the relationship wagon! WHAT THE HELL?!?! i don't know, maybe i think too much, wonder too much but isn't it right to wonder and think too much about someone your going to commit to? What's going to happen in 5 10 years time? Will it only last a week? Would i still feel the same way tomorrow? Would HE feel the same way tomorrow? People would think that after getting dumped, people would be more cautious or wary to get into a relationship but noooo!! they just jump right in again!! I'd understand the occasional romance but every other day too??? After breaking up, you put yourself in the market again and then you break up again and then put youself on the market again. Cycle after cycle after cycle. This becomes a habit and nothing's special anymore coz it all have a sequence now. 1st this then that then this then that. ARRGHH!! And don't you think you'd look cheap? Don't you think you look easy in others eyes? You get into a relationship knowing that it will end and that it will one way or another hurt you enough to leave a scar. Then why do you go through it again and agian. Maybe its the frantic search for Mr./Mrs RIGHT. Maybe you can't stand being alone. Maybe its all a game to you. Maybe you want to be wanted. Maybe you want to belong. I would never know the answers to all my questions and i don't intend to find out anytime soon. I intend to lead a complication free life...well at least for now. But one things for sure, Relationships will always be one big puzzle to me. Other than that, i'm happy, i'm healty and i'm enjoying life to the fullest! That's all that counts!! To my hundred and third post!! PS: (response to nads post) To my beloved friends. Forever and always. Labels: emotionally unstable, random post 101, thoughts |
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Thursday, November 8, 2007
Emotionally Unstable/ 10:45 PM
Labels: curse you, emotionally unstable, pissed off, them never me, thoughts |
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Monday, October 8, 2007
Marriage proposal NO NO/ 4:18 PM Honey arh, you want to buy a flat?? Omg!! i swear, if a guy ever propose to me by saying that, I WILL KILL HIM!!(or at least smack him really hard!!) I mean we all know that if you ask you partner whether she wants to buy a flat, you're actually asking her to marry you. But WHY?!??! WHY?!?!? why do you have to say that?? Its not that hard, if you can say Honey arh, you want to buy a flat?You definitely will be able to say Will you marry me? For starters, it's definitely shorter!!! And trust me, you wouldn't want to tell you're kids that you proposed to your wife in that manner!! It's sooo embarrasing, both for you and your kids. Third, where's the romance, if not romance than it should at least be memorable!! Not when you're driving and suddenly "hey you wanna buy a flat?" Proposing to you future spouse-to-be should be memorable because its once in a lifetime(unless you marry and then divorce and marry and divorce...then, in that case, you shouldn't marry at all. You should just have one night stand...well thats how you treat marriage then why not??). You do not have to go over the top with it, but just so that it'll be a pleasant experience. If you're not confident she'llsay yes, then why not shock them?? buy them hundreds of roses(okay maybe not hundreds) candle lit dinner, and why not throw in a bottle of champange since you already went to the trouble, your partner would be speechless!! that is when you take control of the battle feild!! get down on one knee and ask her to marry you!! she will be in a state of shock that she can't say anything...well then you just treat it like a yes, i mean silent means consent!! ahahha I've heard of guys going to such lenghts to propose to their wife-to-be and its soo soo romantic and incredible and memorable! i'm too lazy to tell you people the story...be original and do something out of the ordinary... Anyways, if you DO NOT know how to deliver the BASIC marriage proposal well i'll just have to take you step by step then won't I. Step 1: Prepare the ring!! (a must!! please! wedding ring not onion ring or any other ring!) Step 2: Get down on one knee(unless you have no knee/s, then please skip this step!!) Step 3: Gently hold of her hand and look into her eyes Step 4: Ask her to marry you. Done, 4 easy steps!! woohoo!!! Well i guess i'll leave you to practice on your own!! Labels: public issues, thoughts |
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Sunday, October 7, 2007
Do or Don't : Going out alone/ 2:02 PM I'm curious, are people really afraid to do something on their own? The reason I'm curious about this is due to the conversation my friends and I had. Well the conversation started when they asked me what my plans were for the weekend. I told them that I was planning to go the national library and maybe do a little shopping at Bugis Junction. Being the Kaypoh friends that they are, they then asked me who I was going with. And again, i told them that i was going alone. Well I think you guys are smart enough what their reaction was. OMG! Why are you going there alone? Don't you feel akward or weird?? Paiseh?(well maybe this is an exaggeration but its along the same line.) As much as I enjoy having company when i go out, I'm also perfectly fine with just going out alone. Sometimes I'm really glad to go out alone, times when i just need to be alone and have my own breathing space. Its not that I do not realate well to people, in fact I think I'm rather comfortably among people but I don't need them to be around me 24/7. Often, I go out alone to get a bite, to go shopping, and even to watch movies. I think its totally okay for someone to go to the movies alone. I enjoy myself and that's all that matters. But I do really dislike it when i buy myself a ticket and the person ask "only one?", i'll answer yes and they give me this I-can't-believe-you're-here-alone look. I think i can entertain myself so there's really no need for company sometimes. But i still don't get it why people are soo kinda against going out alone....are you guys just unindependant?insecure? just don't like going out alone? what?? If you guys have any reason as to why people shun at the reason of someone going out alone, maybe you can leave a comment or something cause i really don't find anything wrong with going out alone. Labels: independant, public issues, thoughts |
