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Saturday, May 17, 2008
Tempermental ME!/ 7:28 AM Oh. MY. Gawd!!!! i'm sooo freaking tired!!! i slept for only 3 hours last night. Sooooo freakin pissed! okay so turned off the lights at ard 11pm? and all the while i just toss and turn on the bed thinking of stuff. I seriously couldnt sleep coz i was thinking of important stuff. and then suddenly, i had an idea for my art piece and i was like "ugh, it can wait till tomorrow". but noooooo, my stupid brain, which btw refuses to listen to me! (hahha i know what your thinking, doesnt the brain control the whole body...but you know what, WHATEVER!!! i'm in a pissy mood so dun push it! >:&) so anyhow, it refuses to let me sleep!! and well, i'm not gonna lie down like a retard and not get any sleep! so i decided to ponder on the stupid idea that didnt 'pop' up in a more reasonable time. So i've done a number of sketches and well thats all. Finally knocked out at 4++? yeah and now i'm awake at freaking 740am. STUPI STUPID STUPID STUPID!!! UGH!! hmmm maybe this is why many artists are tempermental. Well, i couldnt blame them! i think i'm one of them. Anyway i guess thats it! i need to find sth to do or i'd just lose it. See ya >:& Ps: PEOPLE!! don't talk to me right now coz i seriously would just bite your head off anf spit it out again then get some dog to eat it or sth....PPPFFFT!!! Labels: artsy fartsy, dumb, emotionally unstable, irritating, losing it, moody, pissed off, random post 101, shitty day |
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Saturday, March 22, 2008
My Kaleidoscope of Feelings/ 9:00 PM Ben and jerrys is the best medicine to a really sucky day. Well i wont really get into the day coz i'm still kinda pissed(ben and jerrys can only do soo soo much) but just gonna type down my thoughts and feelings. Today was a kaleidoscope of feelings. Let me just break it down for ya. In the early morning, it was like a train wreck. In other words, CHAOS. Just these mixture of feelings. There was anger, pissy-off-ness, impatience and loads more. But then nearing 10 am or so, my feelings kinda mellowed down and it was all drive and determination all the way. At noon, i was hungy and well we went to eat duh. Calm and peacefulness was all i felt then. Nothing panicky or nervous just very relaxing. Then there was feelings of "yucks!" coz i had to take my medicine. And i choked on the third pill.(ooopsie, i'm sorry i hate swallowing pills) Then there was a feeling of "i'm gonna die!" and finally i came through and it was all gonna be fine as the pill went down. But after the pill went down, i felt "EEEWWW!!!" coz the taste was still there and it SUCKED!! After, the adranaline started to pump its way into my head and i was hypied out! And then there was the feeling of "ahhh, we're finally gonna do this" All the was in the bus trip, i felt calm and honestly, i was picturing what i'm gonna do to my hair and what i'm gonna wear for farewell party. (to take my mind off the comp) hehehe.... Then at the waiting hall, boredom crept into my mind and started telling stupid and retarded jokes. Made the rest laugh so mission accomplish! Dissapoinment came when they announced that the comp will be postponed to like 4:15 pm or something. Nevermind, everything is going to be okay. More boredom and sleepiness. At 4:15pm they announced that they will wait till 5:30 pm latest for the weather to let up. Impatience and pissy-off-ness swept throught me. Then came the Shock! at seeing a freak lighning. (damn it was freaking scary okay) After it was just restlessness and piss-off-ness at the anouncement that they might resume to tomorrow which was sunday(WTF!?!?!?) but then it was going to be postponed to neaxt saturday(affing lar!!) I just felt anger and sadness at the same time so i was kinda weird. Throughout the briefing, i was on the verge of tears coz i wanted to show them all of them that we can do it but whatever. Found my control, and no tears spilled. The bus journey was a blur. I kept slipping in and out of conciousness. just felt numb all the way home. Finally at home, everything spilled, no more reserved control but just raw me. Everything that i held back just burst to get out and i had one nice,long, overdued crying spell. When it was all over, i napped for an hour. I feel soo emotionally drained right now. I dont think i could be bothered with feeling. i feel nothing. After the whole day and all the feelings bombarding me, i no longer have the energy to feel. (now i know how emo ppl feel!!) Anyhow, with a tub of ben and jerrys and a meal from macs, i'm on my way to recovery!! on the road to mending is not a pretty sight. Thank god no one is seeing me like this. pphheeeww! Labels: campcraft, competition, emotionally unstable, shitty day |
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Tuesday, February 12, 2008
stupid immature fuckheads/ 5:12 PM Hey hey hey!! okay i have a mind for bitchin right now...and this post goes to...*drum roll* THE STUPID SHITHEADS IN OUR SCHOOL!!!!! wahahahah!! Why?why?why?? Because you guys are fucking morons!! fucking immature, unfeeling fuckheads!!! okay let me really tell you what happened, well, we had ss lecture today(for those who do not know what ss is, it is social studies) after school in the lecture theater. And as usual, those soooo call OH SO 'COOL' people just had to make unnecessary comments and noises while our teacter is give us the lecture. What irritate and pissed me off was the FACT that they were soo happy and making "woohooo!" noises while watching this clip of the collapsing of the twin towers in manhattan on Sept. 11. Dudes!!! shitheads!! whatever you wanna call yourself, you are fucking watchin a clip where hundreds or even thousands dying because of the terrorist attack on the twin tower!! doesn't that freaking mean anything to you??!?!? you can realy sit there enjoying the "movie" while it really happened and many innocent lives are lost!?!?! ARE YOU EVEN FUCKING HUMAN?!?!!? Coz i really don't believe you are.... What just because you make 'cool' noises, that meas you're cool? i don't fucking think so!! you all are sooo typical spoilt brats!! I hope someone would take a gun and bust your brains out with it since you're not using it at all!!fuckheads! Anyways, i shan't care bout idiotic morons that don't give two shits about otheres but themselves...self-centered fuckers....i'm sorry, but its soooooo true...dumbasses i guess the post will end here before i go and talk about how ugly you fuckheads truely are. gtg, i'm soooooooo not in the mood. PS: sorry for all the swearing but they sooooooooooo freaking deserved it!!! Labels: dumb, fuckheads, random post 101, shitty day |
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Tuesday, January 29, 2008
sick to the stomach, literally/ 7:02 AM Okay, I feel sick... I hate feeling sick.. Labels: shitty day |
