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Thursday, April 9, 2009
Hope..what a load of bull/ 12:31 AM Alamak, bloody hell luhh.... After tossing and turning like some maniac on my bed, i finally gave up and decided to just stare at my ceiling and drown myself in the loud post-hardcore music i turned on. Tonight is like every other night, i just surround myself with darkness and just zone out before finally drifting off to sleep... Usually i'll just keep awake and tire myself out so that by the time i lie on my bed i'll just knock out in a few minutes. But not tonight i guess, the usual routine of staring off into space while letting my music blast in my ears but not really listening to it....thinking of...oh well, this and that... Hope a funny word huh? Some believes in it, some don't and some just don't give a shit bout it. Which category do i fall under? hmmm, maybe i do believe in it but then again maybe i don't or maybe i shouldn't even bother hoping, why hope? Hope are for the weak, those that can't and don't do anything about shit...that's why they hope...they don't have the power to control the situation therefore they only hope things turn out for the better...hah ME? I don't hope, if the situation gets better, good then and if it doesn't then i say FUCK IT I dun sit back and just let "FATE/DESTINY" take its course, i make my own destiny...nobody is going to tell me my future is all set and pass me a freaking contract all printed in black and white expecting me to sign it and lay over like a a bitch learning new tricks. Hoping is a waste of time....Why hope when you can try and do something about it? If it doesnt work out, oh well freaking move on then...see? you dun have to fucking hope that the situation will change, you CHANGE IT. "I let go. Lost in oblivion. Dark and silent and complete. I found freedom. Losing all hope was freedom. " I can't agree with this more...Without hoping, you dun expect anything and dun have ridiculous wishful thinking that everything will turn out like that fucking fairy tale ending you watch in movies or read in books. You and I know why its there in the first place, to provide people, who cant handle the fact that the world is a fucked up place with a temporary escape from this world filled with disappointment and darkness... I know some of you may strongly disagree and that i may have pissed certain people off, but oh well this is my blog and this is my opinion, so sue me. When the day comes when a damn human being cant have an opinion of their own...its prolly the day where the C_______ grow big dicks, the B_______ dun smell like shit and MATS (this one i can say) dun think about sex all day...HAH fat chance that happening! P.S : you can assume whatever the blanks are....i did not say it, you were the ones who thought of it Labels: random post 101, rant post, thoughts |
