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Thursday, December 4, 2008
RONNIE RADKE!!!/ 11:35 PM this post goes out to my new found love!! (which i do not know how long it'll last...ahhaha) well, i LOVE RONALD J. RADKE!! AKA RONNIE RADKE!!!! WOOOHOOOO!!! you guys prolly wouldnt know him...well thats good! coz more for me!! haha yeah right...anyways! he's the ex-singer of the band called Escape The Fate. He's now in jail, btw...but he's getting out in february i think if nothing goes wrong! and i cant wait for his new band and his new songs!! WOOOHOOOO!!!!!!     RONNIE RADKE ROCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahah Labels: love love love, ronnie radke |
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Sunday, November 30, 2008
My epiphany/ 11:59 AM hey!! I'm finally blogging again! hahha, my apologies for being too lazy to think of something to post up in this nearly dying blog. I had an epiphany while i was lying down on my bed and thinking about life and what it's all about, about my future, about what am i going to do for the rest of my life and stuff like that. Well, then, i suddenly started thinking of why I've never had a boyfriend before or let alone allow someone (namely a guy..) to get too close to me. And then i thought about my phobia of commitment (hahah!). Of how I'm afraid to be tied down by someone, to have great expectations from and of someone, to see him walk away after all the sacrifices i had done or see all the happy moments all go to waste and to not be able to truly be myself when I'm with that someone (you know the saying of people change or aren't truly themselves when in a relationship right?) However after really giving it alot of thought, i finally realize that I'm not afraid of commitment(surprisingly). Having someone to love and someone loving you is a great feeling and if i do find that special someone, i wouldn't mind being tied down, i wouldn't have to pretend to be someone else in the relationship because he would love me for who i am. But instead, i found what was the true fear beneath the facade of being "commitment phobic". Disappointment. That is what I'm truly afraid of. I'm afraid that after committing to a guy and giving him all that i have (in terms of feelings luh, not money...I'm not THAT stupid!) that it will not work out and he'll in the end would leave me. And I'll in the end would end up with a broken heart and i for one do not know whether I'd be able to piece it back together. Turning into an unfeeling zombie (biggest fear!) I've had a preview of being disappointed and honestly, i don't care for the feeling. I believe that I'm not like the majority of teenagers or even adult out there who are just living day by day and having a relationship just because it's the IN thing. Of having a boyfriend/girlfriend (but what he/she really is, is just another accessory or for some, another trophy to be displayed in a cupboard). I'm looking for something that will last and not just a one night stand kinda thing. So this is my story. What's yours? Labels: love love love, random post 101 |
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Monday, April 21, 2008
3 of 4 : "what is love?" special edition/ 8:03 PM 3 Of 4: "what is love?" special edition(My perspective) So!, i've onced asked Nathan how you know when you fall in love with someone.(PURLEASE!!! i was in a mellow mood okay, good food, walk on the beach. I was feeling sappy okay!! Not that it would ever happen again. Unless there's more good food and mellow surroundings! haha) So anyhow he said something like " You just know. But you have to be careful. Because it could be misleading. Like you lose all sense of reason. You think nothing matters except that one person. And that's not necessarily a good thing either." I know what you're thinking. SOO damn "CHIM"(if thats even how you spell it) Well, Nathan can be deep sometimes but other than those rare moments, he's just a total ass. Anyhow, he continued (yeap there's more) "Loving someone is fab but what matters is loving someone in an ordinary way and not those crazed retarded freaks who'd commit suicide if they break up or stuff like that.(so much for being deep!) "Living with them. With all their bad habits and their smelly socks and snoring and their obnoxious friends and thins that irritate you. That's what love really is."9if thats love, then count me out!!) And he said, "It's like the way i love you, even though you've goot some really disgusting habits, like..."(NO! i'm not telling you that bit!) And woooaaahh!! Hold on there cowboy. What did he just say? Lets rewind abit. It's like the way i love you It's like the way i love you It's like the way i love you It's like the way i love you OMIGOSH! Kay i seriously do not know what to say to that. Speechless!! NEVER IN MY WHOLE TALK FEST LIFE HAVE I BEEN SPEECHLESS. To be honest, i think love is abit retarded. But i'm not gonna spoil this post with my pessimistic view in how crappy love is.(ooops! there i go again! we'll come to that again.) i'll end it here then. Ps i didnt really reply him. Which was, on the surface, fine to him but i knew that he felt like he got suckerpunched. Okay well, i didnt guess that. he told me in a jokingly friendly tone. "Ouch, is my mouth bleeding? I just bare my soul and someone sucker punched me." (honestly, i didnt know what to say so we ended up walking in silence)...DON'T EVEN THINK OF SAYING IT!! I Know what you're thinking. so dont even try it! Pps HEY!! I'm miss commitment phobic dude! cut me some slack geez!! Labels: love love love, retarded |
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Sunday, February 17, 2008
Nathan, Shopping, Chocolates...HEAVEN!!!/ 9:45 PM I spent ard $200 dollars today on a few BUM t-shirts and dresses.... I feel sooooooo happy today!! well first off, i was grump but my mood kept improving throught the day. in the morning, i had to wake up early coz i had tuition with my aunt and we did revision on a maths...and let me tell you, i am soooo dead!! hahah well, after i bitched to her about MONSTER and NPCC coz she was once a CI and a cadet. So i thought it'd fit if i told her about all the bullshit that's been happnening. And laughed and laughed.. Left her place at ar 2:15 pm and went to meet up with Hottie nathan at BUGIS JUNC. We had loads of fun!! hahah there was some performance thingy and we sat at starbucks and watched...after, he accompanied me shopping because i felt like spending money....hahaha!! ooopps!! I bought loads of tops from BUM and a new pair of heels...And he of course, bought a couple of t shirts from topman...and of course, he looked hot in every single one of them...hahah Then after, we sat at the fountain area with the snacks we bought at Papa beards something something....hahah forgot the name... and well we talked and talked and talked...well i felt really great coz i ate a chocolate eclair and a fondant chocolate which were DELISH!! it was about 5:30pm then...So well, i was feeling kinda sleepy after eating loads and loads of chocolate(which reminds me that i'll have to starve myself in the coming week...haha)and well, he was sweet and all... So then while watching the fountain and children playing i kinda dozed off and rested my head on his shoulder....so then it was kinda like a dream but ooohh well....SKIP SKIP SKIP SKIP....then he asked me to be his lady...yeap thats what he said...soo the gentleman...hmmmm and well i was in a really good, no wait, GREAT mood and after eating chocolates and spending hundreds on shopping, i was sooo in a FAB mood.. soo, i replied..... Labels: hottie heaven, love love love, splurge |
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Sunday, February 3, 2008
basshunter/ 9:13 PM OMG OMG OMG!!! i have a new hottie now!!! hahahah, and he's soooooooo hoootttt!!! well, he's the artist of the song currently played as my blog background!! his real name is jonas Altberg aka BASSHUNTER!!! and he's from sweden...but he's totally hot hot hot!!! Well, how he got famous, he's talnted and extremely good looking...hahahha anyways, love all his music!! EURODANCE BABY!!! LETS GET IT ON!!! hahahha definitely a plus to club to his music!!!    Labels: hottie heaven, love love love |
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Friday, January 11, 2008
Happy birthday to my mama!!!/ 10:38 PM yo!! ho ho!! hahah okay, i just came back from np, and today the captains and vice captains of the campcraft teams had to go to HQ for the balloting and briefing for the up and coming campcraft competition...and honestly, i was kinda nervous, looking at all the other schools... but nevermind, i believe we can do it!! hahah After, we went back to school just in time for the dismissing of the lower secs. I then had to go to get the cookie cake i ordered from famous amos for my mums birthday!! hahah. I was alone, so when we bordered the bus, there were these mats who were kinda trying to hit on me and ask for my number but obviously i said no. and no they were not hot...hahha... anyways, they were sitting behind me btw, and then there was this apek who came up and started touching the seat...you know how the old chinese people usually pat the seat before actually sitting on it...and the mats and i watched him coz its weird!! and so the apek started saying something like the warmth left behind by the other person might be bad so then you'll get the disease or something like that...and the mats started laughing like hell and i just can't help but smile coz it was really ridiculous. Then the apek started saying something about must wait until the seat cool down and the mats said that might as well wear double seluar dalam..and i couldn't help but laugh...hahah After, there was this group of Meta students who bordered the bus after their soccer match...and the mats started takling to them and well behind all the FRIENDLYNESS, they were actually making fun of them....i was a bit irritated...and yeah...then they were like asking for my number again, but they spoke in english, to think that mats usually talk in malay right....My brother called me then, ooh! perfect timing, i didn't have to answer them....so yah i always talk to my brother in malay...and well of course the mats were eavesdropping...and they were shocked to hear me speak in malay....Like WTH?!?!? They were like " eh dier cakap melayu arr, dier melayu eh??" Well, eventhough i have no malay blood in me, i certainly kinda look like a malay...well i guess, i took it as a compliment, they didn't think i look like a malay...well for that i gave them my msn add....but its kinda useless, i hardly go online anymore....no time lar!! Anyways, my mum loved her birthday present!! YAY ME!!! I Love You Mama!!! Btw the previous sunday, Nad came over to my house to do this bumper for our podcast...so well other than it being crap, it was a success!! yeah!! so i['m just gonna post it in this post. Well, i might not be bloggin in a while coz i seriously have no no no no time!!! but i'll try my best to post crap now and again...hahah... see yah people!! PS: Happy birthday to you!! happy birthday to you! happy birthday to mama. Happy birthday to you!! Love you to bits and pieces. I dunnoe what i'll do without you. Labels: flirt, happy birthday, love love love |
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Tuesday, December 4, 2007
sweet sweet dream/ 11:21 PM WEEEEEEE!! okay i'm currently bloggin on my brand new laptop!! I ought to sleep coz i have school tomorrow...but before i sleep i just wanted to post something using my brand new laptop my parents just got me!! wahahaha...i'm happy now!! okay i guess i should go sleep now!! nighty night!! Labels: love love love |
